THE CIRCUMSTANCE
SHE STEALS LIKE A THIEF
:: but she’s always a woman to me::
The birth of Dorothy Abbott could be seen as either a blessing or a curse. She was a blessing to her mother since the child was conceive out of an unlikely but powerful love affair between two people from opposite sides of society. She was a curse to the Carey family because they lost their one and only son because of her existence and the circumstance of her birth. She was a blessing disguised as a curse to Alan Abbott, who raised the child as his own despite knowing she was never really his in the first place. She was a curse to Karen because Karen envied her sister for being lighter and prettier in her opinion. She was a curse to John because everyone in town knew the story of Dorothy Abbott and no one was willing to let it go. Dorothy often wondered whether she was a blessing or a curse throughout her life. Her parents never wanted to reveal to her why she looked different from her older siblings. At a young age, she realized that everyone viewed her and treated her differently. She never really fit in with anyone. She was too light to be considered black, but she was too dark to pass as white. Her whole being was stuck in a constant state of grey.
She was the product of an affair between a white man and a black woman. Sure, the civil rights movement had long been over when she entered the world. Hattiesburg wanted to consider themselves ahead of their time. Everyone seemed to view each other as equal. A black man could sit and have a meal with a white man. No one would look at them weird. A black woman could converse with a white woman at the park while their children played on the play ground. Yes, they were ahead of their time, they truly felt. But, intermixing on a romantic level was never considered the norm. It was the unspoken rule of the town. There could be friendship, yes, but a relationship built on love and trust...no. That simply couldn’t exist between the two races.
Yet, two people dared to challenge that rule. Yes, they were married to other people. And it hadn’t been Oliver and Thelma’s intention to hurt their spouses and cause such an uproar that ended in violence, sadness, and a new life. But their love had been unexpected to the both of them. Thelma’s children were in school, as were Oliver’s children. Alan figured it was be good if Thelma got a job to bring in more money for their household. Oliver and Alan had been good friends and he knew of an opening at the Sheriff’s office. So, Thelma went to work as the receptionist. She knew of Oliver Carey, just as he knew of her. But they never had much interaction with each other.
It wasn’t like their marriages were at a bad place. Quite the opposite, their marriages were going just fine. But love had a funny way of doing things. And love had been the reason they took that fateful step into each other’s arms. Their affair began February 1975. That May, Thelma discovered she was pregnant. This pregnancy was different than the last two she experienced. She couldn’t understand, but she felt an overwhelming amount of joy. At first, Oliver had been caught off guard, but he too had a skip in his step. In secret, they made plans to runaway together and go somewhere where they could be together in the open.
But that never came.
What came was a shocking reveal to a town. Their secret came out and no one knew how to take it. And one late eve on a cold November night, Oliver Carey’s body was discovered; he had been beaten to death. No one ever came forward about the murder. Though, many suspected Alan himself did it. No one dared to press the matter because the situation died alongside Oliver in the ditch. Thelma couldn’t openly grieve. She wasn’t even invited to the funeral. Alan stayed with her because he considered himself a good man and a God fearing man.
And that was the circumstance Dorothy Jean Abbott was born into. She didn’t ask to be born into it. Yet, she may have suffered more because of it than anyone. Her sister and brother wouldn’t acknowledge her in school. Oliver’s kids, Oliver Jr. and Madison, didn’t even know of her. Their mother had picked up and moved from Hattiesburg, no one but the Carey family knew where she had gone. She never stepped foot back into the town again.
Life in the grey was difficult for Dorothy. She had no identity. She was just Dorothy, the love child of Oliver Carey. She was the grey sheep. She was...
She never knew who she was. But everyone seemed to know who she was before she even knew.
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