Ab Antiquo

they need boxes, labels, neat little definitions
incapable of understanding the complexity of your endless contradictions
and so you tell them -
You are the vampire Liander.
You have drunk XXXX pints of blood.
You are sire to one other vampire, including: Nyatta [deaddeaddead][feeltherot,breatheitin,embraceit][youaresocoldnow][butthisknifeisyourstrength]
Your lineage runs as follows: Drella
[drellatiferethsartoriandresheyrenaliander][they'reallthesame]
[monstervillainbeastwarrior][WE ARE THE BAD GUYS][---they love the attention, even if it's negative]
[theychangedhim][this isn't the liander i knew][he destroyed himself for them]
[but you fucking love the disease]

adjust that collar,
tug that sleeve
you vainnarcissisticegotistical---
emerald eyes, dark hair, jawline for days, all lean&agile muscle

selfish.
arrogant.
cisgenderbisexualheteroromantic[can i put my dick in it? okay then. moving on.](hut1hut2hut3-let'sgo)(you know i like it when you drop it low, hike up that skirt, get naughty)
unstableimpulsive.
psycho/sociopath---
recklessanddangerous
he'll kill you as soon as look at you
thought without action, fire and rage without end
andtheycallyouCHAOTICEVIL
inhuman.

lahoslie&
synangel&
avita&
maddy&
whitefang&
alexdoh&
ladypeacek&
kaio&
inu&
moonshadow&
tifereth&
eliza&
moonshadow&
sartori&
drella.
flaky, needy, he can't commit to anything

youarethevampire-
demonwerewolfdragontemplarnorse
You are the vampire and it's such a beautiful & perfect disease.
#fuckyourtail

fucking splinterddarywannabe
nothing is sacred. nothing is serious.
youcouldn'teven commit to staying dead
(nevermind that we begged you to come back, that it wasn't a choice)
he's not worth the attention, it's just liander, don't waste your time, stop taking him seriously, he can't stick with anything, he's just a blunt weapon, he's nothing outside the battle
[go on. keep fucking underestimating me. pay attention and see how that's worked out for everyone else.]

isit19or20or21or25zeroingsnow
and yet, as the city shrinks---
you survive.
they die while you thrive.
never zeroed more than once by the same people except byD'DARY

you are the vampire liander.
THEREISNOINDIVIDUALTHEREISONLYhiveMYNAMEIS
drellakiiawindtiferethandresheyrenajaenelleelektralizrodvexezrazephyragaztarindahliaephinysitrence
(#teamfuckyourfeelings)
LEGIONFORWEAREMANY
livebreatheexistonlyasMOTHERFUCKINGD'DARYitislifeitselfthesubstancethatsustainsyouallyoehaveoreverwillneed
wedon'tapologize.that'sjustthewayitis.butwecanharmonize.evenifwesoundlikeshit.

nothing is serious - until it is.
ANDTHENGODHELPYOU.
flakynoncommitalhisattentionwon'tlastno,dumbass.
it's simple if you pay attention, really
you don't deserve my emotion
commitment is worth
and you have been weighedandmeasuredandbeenfound fucking wanting

bounces,runs,avoidsattachment
siretosire
fucktofuck
fuck what you don't care about, what you don't respect, because each is -
sameasthelastjustthesameshitdifferentfaces
but when you feelandfall
itiseverything allyouknow anddon'tletgo

the rage isn't real.
do you feel that adrenaline, letitsurgethroughyou, the bigbadwolf is coming (hideyourkidshideyourwife)
---redhotrage
let them believe it. that impulsivesenselessinsanebeast.
(hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha)
it's just so fucking easy jesusfuckingchrist do you always believe what you're told?
THEBEASTISawakeNOW
(personally, i like the disease. it makes me stronger.)
butit'sokaywe'llbesafe, hisattentionwon'tlastlong, sitstillandhewon'tnoticeyou, he'llthrashandswingbuteventuallytuckerhimselfout
let them believe you never had a plan.
I got smarter, I got harder in the nick of time
I rose up from the dead, I do it all the time
I've got a list of names and yours is in red, underlined
(lookwhatyoumademedo)
just when you believe he's not looking is exactly when he is.

THESE ARE, AS FOLLOWS AND IN ORDER OF IMPORT, THOSE WHO DESERVE WHAT YOU ARECANBEWILLBE.
THESE IMPRESSIVE FEW WHO SHINE OUTSIDE THE EVERCONSTANTWEAREONEASINGLEFUNCTIONING HIVE.
HERE ARE THE WORDS THAT I WILL NEVER SAY.

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drella d'dary, i love you. i was never your trophypettool. you know me - nobody else does. and you know it. i think i know you, feel that i do. one of these days you might tell me that it's true. idc. you're not my sire, you're my fuckinghive on levels i haven't even begun to comprehend. ask me for the world and i would knock it from its stand, burn every last one of them, and wrest the gods from the heavens - i would do it all for you at your command.

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FUCK YOU. FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU. you're not dead, no, it's not real, it's not true, you're not like the rest - you didn't leave me. i never got to say sorry. i never got to tell you i love you. i never got to say i fucking hate you and we still have so many arguments left in us. this is not how this fucking story ends, you bitch.

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kiia d'dary, you know that i love you, but do you know that all you had to do was ask? i am empty and vacant and cold but sometimes - fewfarrare - only sometimes - butthosemomentsaresoperfect - you give me warmth. fuck you for that. for making me feel humanandvulnerableandraw on those nights.


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w.w.a.d.?
butalsofuckyou