Looking for pen-pals
Posted: Sat Dec 23, 2017 11:12 am
Hello,
I have been putting off doing something like this for a while. I thought I could do this normally, like everyone else, but I have been struggling rather a lot. I have social anxiety disorder which means that social situations can cause me great distress, I have anxiety attacks when I must talk to people I do not know – in short, I spend a lot of my life in fear of rejection/failure. All I want to do is make friendships, but I mostly stick to my room. My family is very important, but I feel like I am a burden to them simply because they are all I have and, so I seem like all I do is hang around them like a lost puppy.
So, I thought I could find my courage with writing out the request. Behind my screen I don’t stutter, I don’t shake, and it is easier to get my feelings across. I would like to ask for a pen-pal. As stated before, I stutter, and not just a little. I practically can’t speak some days. This stutter of mine is something that I fight daily, and it is the reason that I am asking for a pen-pal…if I can talk to someone for a time and we can become friends that way, then maybe when we meet you won’t be so put off by my stuttering awkwardness.
I am aware that this is a strange thing to ask, I know I shouldn’t beg for friendships and I should just put in some more work, but this is hard for me…and I want to get out of the lab.
Fitzwilliam Simmons
I have been putting off doing something like this for a while. I thought I could do this normally, like everyone else, but I have been struggling rather a lot. I have social anxiety disorder which means that social situations can cause me great distress, I have anxiety attacks when I must talk to people I do not know – in short, I spend a lot of my life in fear of rejection/failure. All I want to do is make friendships, but I mostly stick to my room. My family is very important, but I feel like I am a burden to them simply because they are all I have and, so I seem like all I do is hang around them like a lost puppy.
So, I thought I could find my courage with writing out the request. Behind my screen I don’t stutter, I don’t shake, and it is easier to get my feelings across. I would like to ask for a pen-pal. As stated before, I stutter, and not just a little. I practically can’t speak some days. This stutter of mine is something that I fight daily, and it is the reason that I am asking for a pen-pal…if I can talk to someone for a time and we can become friends that way, then maybe when we meet you won’t be so put off by my stuttering awkwardness.
I am aware that this is a strange thing to ask, I know I shouldn’t beg for friendships and I should just put in some more work, but this is hard for me…and I want to get out of the lab.
Fitzwilliam Simmons